The Journey {Part Two}

STOP right there!! 

 If you haven't already read 

The Journey {Part One}

quickly go do that!! 

This post will not make very much 

sense if you don't ;) 

Then the door into the waiting room swung open. 

"Kerrington!" the lady said, 

with a white file folder tucked under her arm... 

As I stood up, my legs began quivering as I took each step closer & closer to the examining room. 

I sat on the table, & opened wide...just as rehearsed. 

Thoughts of such excitement were racing through my mind, as I thought her answers would have been the ones,

that I so desperately wanted to hear... 

She looked in & said the exact same disappointing line I had already heard from my Family Doctor many a time. 

Keeping this in mind, I had waited 6 months of my life

to see this specific ENT. 

The devastation dropped on me as she said

"Surgery, is not needed..." 

I walked out of that office with tear filled eyes

& a very heavy heart. 

Another 8 months has now gone by in our little journey

& the same reoccurring throat issues

are now becoming my normal. 

It's now, the Eve of Christmas Eve.

2012.

(I am 14, turning 15 in about a week)

My throat is an excruciating amount of pain,

I can't swallow or taste. 

Tonsils are enlarged & oh did I mention,

it's the biggest holiday season ever. 

My parents then brought me to Emerge that night,

to see if there was anything

that could give me some relief. 

We waited a few hours & finally got into a room. 

The Doctor then seen me at Midnight

& said basically the 

same line as always. 

He then prescribed me some meds to

give me at least a little bit of relief for the Holidays. 

I stayed sick for awhile that time. 

Through Christmas, my Birthday 

& into the new year of 2013. 

I would get up in the morning shower, go back to bed

& then wake up sometimes in the afternoon.

 I just couldn't get enough sleep. 

I will always remember the one day 

I slept for 17 hours, I didn't even have enough strength to keep my head up. 

I lost 10 pounds in a matter of 3 weeks
& I wasn't even getting out of bed. 

I was starting to not fit into my 

jeans anymore. 

My face looked weak, 

My body was beginning to grow weary, as I countinued to fight in the Battle. 

This infection was really giving me a

good whipping that time

& all I could was attempt to sleep through it. 

After that, the rest of 2013

was a very good year for my throat! 

I was really happy that I wasn't in any more pain,

but my tonsils were still swollen

just not as large as before, which was a good sign!

Everything seemed to be doing fine. 

Until, Winter 2013 hit.

Tonsils flared back up & both my ears were plugged.

I had so many people suggesting

so many different remedies to unplug my ears, 

I decided to visit my Family Doctor, again to hear her thoughts on my 

situation. 

I was leaving for Florida with my Best Friends Family that afternoon. 

So I went to see the Doc that morning. 

 I was put on Antiboitics once again.

(I was starting to wonder if these things even really help??)

Fast-forward about 3.5 months, 

I am now walking into the same Medical Office 

(1 week ago to be exact) 

As before, to see another ENT about my plugged ears

& my swollen tonsils. 

I past the hearing test with a 100% mark, 

& they seen that there was no damage to my ears at all, 

which was a good thing!! 

My tonsils on the other hand... 

"You'll out-grow this.."

He said.

He also said that this was a common

thing, in the teens of today. 

As that week progressed my throat became

more & more irritated.

Then on Thursday of Last week my

tonsils swelled up again

& my left ear was completely plugged this time.

Not being able to hear out of it at all. 

This was not the greatest timing ever...

As I was very busy that coming weekend with the

Youth Conference at our 

home Church. 

Anyways, that incredible weekend 

I watched so many people get

healed of sickness & of their hurts. 

A suddle spirit of jealousy overcame a

part of my weary heart. 

I then began to Question God,

as I seen all these young people be set free...

"Has God forgot about me 

& my need of a healing??" 

Friday morning of the Conference 

We had a lovely lady

from our church Guest-speaking. 

She is always so hilarious & bold when she speaks. 

She is actually quite the inspiration 

to me!! ;) 

(Love you Linda! Xo) 

That morning she spoke on how

God NEVER forgets us! 

When she spoke those words, 

God sorta stopped me & said:

 

"Kerrington, do you trust me fully that

I will heal you, in my timing

& that I have not forgotten you??" 

My answer was quick in my mind,

but slow to come out in words.

Did I trust God enough,

all this time that he would actually heal me? 

Did I ever think that my healing would never come? 

Did I ever question God & his ability to actually heal? 

Sadly...but yes! I did question these

things a lot in the past 3 years. 

The Saturday afternoon of the conference,

I had the opportunity to Prophetically speak

something over the youth

& I was able to fully use my God-given voice. 

Even though, I was still

under a major attack from the enemy, 

God gave me the strength to speak,

like I have never spoke before in my entire life!! 

 

It was the most exciting & 

oh-so-scariest moment ever! 

I will forever remember!! 

 

I know what your next question is going to be...

 

Did you get healed???
 

 

The answer is NO.

I am still in pain, my tonsils are still swelled up,

my ear is plugged & my nose is running like a river, 

but I got God on my side this time!! 

 

So why is there even a need to worry

about when my healing will come!? 

God's got it all under control :) 

Until next time,

 

 

~Kerrington 

 

The Journey {Part One}

Greetings to all wonderful, 

so patient readers! 

I am sorry it's been forever since 

I have blogged, I had a youth conference
at my home church this past March Break week &

I was involved in it in many different ways,

so I didn't have a chance to really
intimately write something from my heart
& to be honest...

frankly I didn't really feel like writing.  

Somedays I can write 5 blog posts in one sitting

& others I can't even write half of one...But I am here! 

With swollen tonsils, plugged ears, & head-ache the size of New York to give you the Blog-post you've hopefully been waiting for :) 

To start off...Ever since my birth 

the Devil has had an attack 

plan in mind to take my Life. 

If you don't already know,

I wasn't really supposed to live.

(Born blue & dead.) 

Pretty scary stuff.

Over the years I have endured many throat infections. 

Again,Just Satan trying to take the Voice God has given me.

Then at the age of 13 my tonsils

swelled up to the size of miniature golf-balls. 

With that being said, 

you can imagine the amount 

of pain that I was in...

I could barely swallow, 

& when I did try to even take a sip of water,

I would gag it all up.

During that time I began to lose a lot of weight. 

Because if you can't swallow properly,

then you can't eat. 

I craved just to be able to chew something
& swallow it without the pain. 

My tonsils have stayed swollen 

ever since. Yes, you do the math... 

They swelled up at the age of 13. 

I am now 16. 

Yes, I still have these

wonderful-swelled-up-wet-fish-feeling-things

dangling in the back of my throat. 

I was really getting tired & kinda discouraged with of all these throat issues, I just wanted to have a day that

I didn't have to have a throat lozenge in my mouth. 

Time after time, I visited my 

Family Doctor & time after time,

 I got the same discouraging answers,

there's really nothing we can do to help it.

Drink water. Clean out your nose often.

Take your vitamins.

"You'll out-grow this." 

They said. 

After awhile of going to the Doctor's,

I started to know the drill. 

Get on the table, open your mouth as wide as possible,

take a swob, or I mean to say...

Gag yourself until she says "Good, all done." 

(If you are questioning what a swob is...

it's an extra, extra, extra long Q-tip they shove into the back of your throat to check if you have strep/mono.) 

 

 I got tested for strep/mono on a regular basis, it felt like. 

At that time my Doctor booked me in to see an ENT. 

(Ear/Nose/Throat Specialist) 

It took 6 months to get into to see this Doctor.

I was really hoping it was worth that wait. 

Then, the day came when I was to see this ENT!! 

(The miracle performer in my mind.)  

I was so very excited for this day!!

 

"Maybe, I will finally find the answers

I had been looking for..."

I thought. 

Waiting in the waiting room that day felt like an eternity.

My excitement then grew into a great amount 

of fear. 

The room full of anxious people waiting,
the white-dented walls & the old black grimy leather chairs, 

last years magazine issues in a fanned out sort of fashion on the chipped up coffee table & the many young coughing children didn't seem to help lessen my fear. 

 

Then the door into the waiting room swung open. 

"Kerrington!" the lady said, 

with a white file folder tucked under her arm... 

Check in tomorrow to read: 

The Journey {Part Two}

Until next time, 

~Kerrington